non dulce non et decor

I feel so restless, when I really should be throwing myself into my chemistry work with vigour because exams are coming up and my understanding of nuclear chemistry right now is just little balls flying around and hitting each other and KABOOM the world is ending. 

But here I am, blogging and waiting for my sister to finish bullshitting her essay so we can watch teen wolf together. 

Tumblr makes me feel so lonely at times, and then I cringe when I contemplate the fact I am entering the slippery slope of turning into an attention seeking little brat, who is one step away from stating her favourite book is Lolita and quoting song lyrics on every single damn post for self promotion. Like, every single person on that website is depressed and the more I look at how sad and pathetic and desperate some people are, the more depressed I feel myself. 

Why that site fetishises sadness and mental health issues is beyond me, and irritates me to no end bc if I see another 13 yr old claim to have an eating disorder bc they threw up once, or have depression bc they thought they'd try cutting themselves bc they were sort of sad, I will be tempted to punch something. It's not cool, nor is it fashionable or artistic to be fucked up. 

Of course, I'm not saying that mental health is not important BECAUSE IT IS, but my only issues with that lie in the fact that by telling people that all their problems matter, we're seriously distorting what "suffering" is. Everyone has issues, and everyone gets sad, but that doesn't necessarily mean you're depressed, rather sometimes you just need to learn to suck it up. Resilience, people.

Friday: it was so good

Friday night: my bible 

Saturday: I was hobbling by the end of the day bc of a blister

Saturday afternoon: didn't get that cami, the straps were too long ):

It started raining like crazy. Like actually crazy. 

I tried herbal jelly milk tea for the first time ever. So good

Some of the reasons why I'm permanently broke 

I got my big hoops on

X

Jess

an ode to art

Between my many existential crises of the past month, I've reached an impasse in my life. 

I started a new tumblr (I'm prone to doing this like every few months), and I was going to do fashion posts on there, but now it's more of a photography blog, and kind of an ode to my love of skies. I've been inspired by Nan Goldin's work, and it's kind of made me keen to get back into taking photos. I love the feeling of capturing moments, and my nostalgic/sentimental tendencies, apart from making me cry a lot, romanticise little moments a LOT. I think in pictures, and I want the physical proof for when memory later fails. 

But I digress, I will continue doing fashion posts somewhere, because really, fashion was my first love, and an artistic outlet for me. I've decided I'm going to combine my love for clothes with my love of writing/reading/quotes and so that's a project I'm going to work on after my exams. 

Also, I'm kind of in a I-have-nothing-to-wear-what-the-fuck-was-I-thinking-when-I-bought-this-animal-printed-harem-pant moment in my life, and have decided that from now on, I will only buy black, white, or vaguely-90s looking clothing items (read: I really want a tartan skirt and anything worn in clueless, bc you know, it's clueless). I need to buy some basics before going crazy (it's hard because I have all sorts of phases where I'm like yes, I wanna look like a mermaid on acid) 

Yes, I have the best friends in the world. 

Mmhmm the Windsor Smith Lilies :)

lol, with my sister sleeping in the background - this was from last week when our hot water system broke and I went for like 3 days without showering and a week without washing my hair. Ick. 

Looking mighty impressed - this photo doesn't show it, but my mascara was so good that day

On the drive home from math tutoring - fisheye looks pretty cool 

I found a picture book for my history extension project lol 

Hey it's a cartoon hitler

I can't really stand Vogue but everything else is cool with me. Thursday afternoons. 

The suburbs

Something is fucking wrong with me. I bought a wig on a whim. Tempted to dye my hair now

What I wore yesterday. 

Lol we went to daiso and my sister wanted to get stickers

I'm actually in love

Oh did I mention my sister bought a copy of Rookie Yearbook Two?! It's like my bible. 

I have to go write up my chemistry practical now. 

My photography tumblr: manicpixiegrrl.tumblr.com

Xx

Jess

super dooper

So today was the first day of the holidays and it's super super hot. I just tried to clean out my desk and succeeded in only removing a few sheets before my face became a water feature. Need some time to work up the motivation to sort through all my books.

So since I haven't done anything exciting (yet) I just have a few photos from this morning. Not really an outfit post, but sort of an outfit post. 

Currently reading The Cellist of Sarajevo by Steven Galloway. 

Yeah, and yesterday I tried to trim some layers in my hair cos I'm getting so bored with it. When I got it cut it was quite even as far as length goes, and now that it's growing out it's starting to look a tad frumpy. 

But yeah, "cutting layers" was basically just choosing random strands and making them shorter haha. I think I'll try again sometime later. Weirdly enough, I'm more scared of going to the hairdressers to get my hair cut than I am of myself with a pair of scissors. 

OH and isn't Devon Aoki such a babe?! Currently obsessing over her, thanks to tumblr. 

And yes, Fast and Furious is one of the only action series I like. 

Have a good day guys ! 

xx

Jess