ice ice baby

Taken on one of the hottest days I've lived through so far in my life. It hit 41 degrees Celsius. 

These past few days have been so unproductive; I haven't been in the mood to do anything really. Sometimes I have those moods where I want to do something, like get out and go to the city or beach or something, but for some reason I don't. 

It's like my life is on a tether; I always have the nagging thought of schoolwork at the back of my head, and to an extent I think it's becoming an excuse I use too often to get out of doing what I want. I mean, I want to be the kind of person who does things on a whim, I want to live my life as though there is no tomorrow, to break out of my comfort zone and explore the world, but to me it's always been a distant maybe in the future. 

I know that things aren't going to happen if I don't make them, and to be honest I'm shit scared of never doing the things I want because I keep putting it off as part of an exciting future, only to lapse into a boring life which is probably what my parents have in mind for me. 

So this holiday, I'm going to go places I've always wanted but never did in the past. 

Today, however is still extremely extremely hot and any attempt at getting some work out of the way has gone down the drain. In fact, when I tried to sit down and write a creative piece for English all I succeeded in doing was writing a detailed description of the agony of the hot weather (well, I did use a metaphor at least). 

So instead, I forced my sister to sit down with me and watch Les Mis which I watched last year when it came out and I have been trying to get my family to watch it with me again for the past year. 

I was absolutely obsessed with the film when I first watched it - history remains one of my favourite subjects, and we had just learnt about the French Revolution prior to me watching it, and so everything just really clicked and the struggle of the people and the ignorance of the rich and the revolutionary spirit made me all emotional (no kidding, I cried so much for Fantine and Valjean at the end). 

My sister did not appreciate it nearly as much but she likes Javert the most because he always talks about himself in the third person and that is funny (but it's not meant to be a comedy ahh!). 

Tomorrow we're gonna go and see American Hustle and go find a new place to eat lunch, while doing a bit of shopping. Jennifer Lawrence is like my biggest girl crush right now, so I'm so excited to see the movie. 

x

Jess